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"Only a couple of generations ago, we the people sang the songs and told the stories and generated our culture from the bottom up.

But now, more and more of our culture is spoon-fed to us top down by corporations, TV networks and ad agencies.

We must reclaim our culture. Start telling our own stories again. Singing our own songs. Producing our own meaning.

Creating our own cool..."

- Adbusters Blackspot Campaign




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Absolutely fuckin nothing - that's what. This link makes my blog stronger for no other reason than I bothered to have it here.

Does that make this place any better? No - obviously not. I'm popular simply because I choose to be popular. I chose to make myself accessible to the masses.

But don't mistake my want of accessibility for respect...

...I still hate most of you more than you can imagine.





It's lonely down here. What purpose can a paragraph find at the nigh-bottom of this blog? Should I be humorous? Informative? Why am I here? I wish I was that other paragraph above the calendar. Oh the wonderful things I could do from up there...






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Wednesday, June 30, 2004
One of lifes little ironies...


Alfred Nobel (1833 - 1896):  Inventer of dynamite, explosives industrialist in more than 20 countries and patriarch of the Nobel Peace Prize.



"Although he worked for the majority of his life developing explosives, Nobel was essentially a pacifist. When, in his later years he drew up a will, he stated that he wished the majority of his nine million dollar fortune to be used to fund awards in different fields of study (Physics, Chemistry, Literature, Physiology and Medicine, Peace). He stated that the awards should be given to those who have conferred the greatest benefit to mankind.

It was five years after his death that the first Nobel awards were handed out, in 1901. The Nobel foundation had been set up to organise and structure the awards. Since their inception the Nobel prizes have come to be recognised as the highest honour a person can recieve in a particular area of study. "



(I'm sure that from certain angles this could be considered 'filler material'.  Perhaps you expect justification from me?  Learn to live with dissapointment...)

This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 12:04 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
(7) confirmed sightings

Friday, June 25, 2004
Soulmate


Somewhere out there is your soulmate - the one person who will bring you perfect love and complete your existence in every possible way imaginable.

How can people take solace in such a fucking depressing thought.  There's somewhere around six and a half billion people in the world and you're gonna pin your hopes on meeting "the one"?  Fuck that!

You can beat those odds people.  That girl at the record shop who drops the phat tracks you wish you had the guts to ask about?  She's one.  The guy who you always manage to sit within perving distance of in shared lectures?  He's probably one too.  The random people you see on the street who catch your eye and smile?  They're all prime candidates.

Love people.  Love long.  Love lots.  Love NOW!

In the new religion:  Love as thou will - shall be the whole of the law.

 

This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 09:35 am
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
(13) confirmed sightings

Broken Umbrella



she speaks of the bitter side of thunderstorms
and depicts scenes of melancholic beauty,
have i really the room for another love?



This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 12:55 am
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
(4) confirmed sightings

Wednesday, June 23, 2004
Powercoffee!!!


Although I cut down a lot on coffee (and the related sugar hit), I recently heard that coffee itself isn't so bad for you.  With the chill of winter now in full swing protein shakes are a killer to get down.  For the last couple of days this has been my solution:


SOLENDERS CREAMY VANILLA POWER-COFFEE!!!


Ingredients

2 heaped Tblsp 100% Whey Creamy Vanilla protein powder
100ml cold water
1 Tblsp Alta Rica instant coffee powder
400ml boiling water

Place cold water in the bottom of a large (1 pint) coffee mug.
Add protein powder and blend until smooth.
Add coffee powder and blend until smoother.
Top with boiling water and stir until smoothest.


Anyone know if I'm messing dangerously with the laws of body chemistry?

This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 05:35 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
(1) confirmed sightings

Cancel the Oscars...

This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 04:06 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
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Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on... (Part 2)


If the amount of biomass on this planet stays reasonably constant and the human race is exploding at astronomical rates - both in general numbers (most prominently in 3rd world countries) and in comparative size (based on obesity levels in the west), then isn't there a narrowing discrepancy between what we are made of and what is available for us to eat?

Someone explain to me how I'm wrong - it's crazy thoughts like this that keep me up at night...

This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 06:01 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
(3) confirmed sightings

Monday, June 21, 2004
creation story

by lungfish

paranoia worked into a gravity, it spread a smothering blanket - an evolutionary launchpad
vision was tested on blank sky and a voice said:
"let me tell you about the time that something occured"


medication caused an ear to hear and a conflict of interpretation arose
landscapes were drawn from a plague of particles and the burden was distributed
the law would return as inflated skins while music initiated architecture

animals living through a velocity of fear began to modify their behaviour to comply to human observation thus dropping the keystone into the egg shell honeycomb of anthrocentric history sense
as for the plants, they had been with the music

science procured a steepled shell, dressed for immortality, hollow to hold the music
the motion repelled all opinion and refused to consider its origin
apples happened bringing acids and enzymes
the spinning recorder disguised as an endless bouquet
things became erotic at the drop of a hat

a tyrant placed an apple on a table and lorded over it
as a fish realised it held a monkey inside itself and expelled it on the beach in a larval salamander form

the voters clamoured for more circles and the whole rig began to rotate
books were used for fuel and money and everybody was writing them

the planets turned inside out to expose their freight
no charges were pressed because all involved agreed that they could die

these are secrets the world sung to me truer than the truth
a young order of birds that eats the eyes of believers
science predicted forms of worship and revelled in them

an orgy of mutation took place for many years
between stones, near water, inside clouds
the people bound their feet with the skins of the animals to trample their own cities and each other
they developed external organs like guns and television sets
they believed that they owned things

one mind in a generation will hear the eternal broadcast the voice saying:
"let me tell you about the time that something occured"
and that mind's body will be strapped down and that body's mind will be subject to testing
or electric currents rippled through the brain

but the music pervades
it was music that gave the shove and resolved in music we shall breathe
it was children that crafted a parent and resolved in children we shall live...

This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 09:37 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
(2) confirmed sightings

Friday, June 18, 2004
TRON!


How cool is this guy?




I chose this picture as my favourite (with a 'U' you Splotch!-lovin plebians!) because although it doesn't have the exceptional 'glowing' photoshop enhancements of some of his pics, what it does have is a rather uncomfortable looking crotch shot.

This comes care of a fellow strange fish named Poist.

 

This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 12:17 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
(7) confirmed sightings

Thursday, June 17, 2004
You!


Yes, You!

What do you want from me?  I'm here every day staring at this black empty space where todays witty and interesting post should be and I'm thinking to myself - just what the hell do you want?

I see the evidence of your visits - the comments, the tags, the site map pins, the referral list changes, the hit counter increases... but I still don't get it.  Why do you come?  What do you want?  And why do I care?

I know why - I just hate admitting it.  I like to be liked - it's stupid and childish and true.  I want to write only good posts so that people don't go - "yeah he was okay... but towards the end there, he just kinda lost it...".

Because I am losing it.

More and more the black page never gets filled.  Or it gets half filled and then deleted.  Or worse still - it gets filled and posted and I hate it.  The evidence is right there on this page... and the last... and the last... and so on...

So should I post less?  I would if my ego would let my name fall down and occasionally off that accursed favourites list every now and then.  Not a likely scenario I'm afraid.

I shouldn't post this, because this is exactly the kind of post I'll hate myself for, but I thought you should know.  You make the effort and I'm not always here to reward you and for that I'm sincerely sorry.  If that isn't good enough then tell me.  Abuse me.  Engage me.  Maybe that would help.

What's the point of all this genius if I have nothing to say?

This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 01:30 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
(8) confirmed sightings

Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Philosophy in the Rack Room...


A curious dynamic in the dom/sub relationship is that the submissive secretly holds all the power.  It is the submissives prerogative as to when the fun ends.  With a single word they can return both parties to mundane reality.  It is by the submissive's will alone that the fantasy realm is sustained and the dominant, ever wary of this secret power, will be tempered in his or her ministrations.

I wonder if the illusion of dominance is as frustrating as I'd imagine it to be?  I wonder also if the thrill of overall power excites the supposed sub?

Something to find out I guess...

This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 11:03 am
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
(1) confirmed sightings

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