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Wednesday, August 11, 2004
I'll waste myself on strangers so I don't have to lie there alone. The heat of something living to ward off the cold undead fingers of our once bright love.
What monstrous thing has it become? Formless, whispering and chittering in the dark, driven insane by unbelievable circumstance. Its words (your words) crawling over me - a swarm of angry thoughts that nip and bite and burrow.
The stranger mistakes my desperate grasp for lust - in moments we are lost in one another. A hot burst of life against the night. For that instant I feel release and released. For that brief moment I am alive and free.
But in the final sex-rattle, the convergent lust-spasm, why do I name my demon? Why is it always your name I scream into the dark?
This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 12:40 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Sunday, August 08, 2004
Shadowfoot!
Extemporarily the first, I granted Shadowfoot the prize mostly in light of his recent ordeals.
The other half dozen applicants will all recieve a prize and a extra-special thankyou from me... you know who are!!!
This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 10:01 am
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Thursday, August 05, 2004
Join the Race to 10,000 hits and WIN!
Okay, you see that little counter on the side there? On the left, just below the links from Cyberia and above the Referring Sites list?
Well that little babies going to hit 10,000 today!
And to celebrate I'm going to send the lucky 10,000th visitor something cool. Not something in email, not something 'virtual' either, something tangible, real, IRL cool!
So here's the deal: if you're lucky enough to be surfer number 10,000 I want you to take a screenshot and email it to me at thehephepcat@hotmail.com The first valid 'undoctored' entry with the correct counter number will have the aforementioned cool something sent to them (or to a valid nominated address). In the case of the actual 10,000th visitor not claiming the prize - I will instead pass it along to the person who emails me the closest valid 'undoctored' counter reading.
I'll post a picture of the item in a box before sending it - so you know the rough dimensions of what to expect. Good Luck!
This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 01:21 am
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
Ancient Defense Against the Dark Arts and Modern Psychology both preach the need to 'name one's demons'. Speaking it's true name represents recognising it for what it really is and is the first step to solving the problem.
This is because most demons have embarrassing first names like Gunston, Mildred or Erectile Dysfunction...
(More filler? I know, I'm sorry - I can't help but think I was a lot smarter before I started going to the gym... that or I had a lot more time to come up with stuff that made me look smarter.)
This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 01:19 am
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Friday, July 30, 2004
And I thought Computer Chess was boring - sheesh!
I would love to have a copy of this... for mythological research purposes of course...
This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 05:17 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
A wise man once thought that we were all One Being experiencing our lives subjectively through a non-linear reincarnating Uber-Soul. This parallel uni-existence meant that all crimes commited, were ultimately commited against ourselves and that all selfless deeds sprang from a selfish desire to help oneself.
I suppose we might All be One...
...but that sounds kind of lonely to me.
This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 03:42 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 05:09 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Monday, July 12, 2004
the thinker or the thoughts?
Am I the thinker or am I the thoughts themselves? Is there a difference?
Sometimes it seems I am merely a spectator watching notions unravel. As if neuro-chemistry or biological entropy generates concepts and I simply read them as they spool across the teleprompter of consciousness.
In further news: self examination of ones own quintessential being seems impossible. To attempt to turn the critical eye upon itself is like trying to see ones own face without a mirror.
Extreme introspection is painfully frustrating.
Now here's Bob with the weather...
This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 11:56 am
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Friday, July 09, 2004
It is my belief that Evolution occurs in all things (or at the very least, in all things that are subject to change) - most observably in the realm of the mind, where the ongoing struggle for the survival of ideas ultimately decides the fate of each of our own personal universes.
My halfbred mutant concepts battle it out on a daily basis - and as in nature, only the stronger ones survive to pass on their gene-like notions to the next generation of ideas. Older, nigh-immortal, institutionalised viewpoints (religion, social morality, the flawed belief that more knowledge naturally equates to more truth) are handed down to us from parents, teachers and other figures of authority - but these too must prove themselves in the hostile environment of logic, emotion, repetitive conditioning, television, peer pressures, marketing, boredom and bodychemistry.
Yet are our concepts becoming stronger? More advanced? Better? Or are our concepts arbitrarily tolerant of current environmental dangers?
I find the latter more likely - and wholly indicative of where the human race itself has landed in the evolutionary scheme of things.
This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 10:18 am
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
I said I 'may' return to that previous post - but I totally missed my train of thought and am left waiting at the station for the next one to come along...
...besides, the words: traveled, theorized, circles and trajectories - were all spelt wrong. I suppose I could claim it was some elaborate test* - but I'm too embarrassed to even attempt such an obvious ruse.
I think I hear the next loco-motive (crazy-reason) approaching though - so please stand back from the tracks...
- Soul
* like the one I believed I was in when I was a child - where the 'real people' from the 'real world' would step out from behind some dimension cloaking curtain and take me to the universe that didn't suck.
This thought broke free from Solender's mind at 01:39 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
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