Monday, April 20, 2009
what to make if there is no mood?
light of the
situation, perhaps? gurney halleck said [mood is] "a thing for cattle and love
play"; but I always had my suspicions about his association of the two.
i see writing as a vector - requiring both direction and magnitude.
without a prevailing mood we are but flotsam in the doldrums of
creativity, ineffectually sculling circles with stunted intellectual
paddles.
we need to be caught up in exhaltant tradewinds. to be dragged
under by treacherous currents of depression. gale force anger. a
tsunami of paranoia.
all the genius in the world wont get you anywhere without the want
for, or the need to get away from: 'something' (anything!). to be drawn to, or pursued
by: love; lust; fear or desperation.
what to make if there is no mood? a pointless rant about moods themselves apparently.
This thought broke free from
Solender's mind at 07:48 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Sunday, April 12, 2009
we don't fall in love
love falls in us
and it goes straight through
like yesterday's pasta aubergine
love is like fibre
it helps us pass time
This thought broke free from
Solender's mind at 01:04 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
she says she just wants to kiss me, because her religion forbids it.
and i can't help but think...
...what else does her religion forbid?
This thought broke free from
Solender's mind at 06:19 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
so i just saw this lame storybook thing on teevee about the ugly duckling and i thought: i'm not gonna read that shit to my kids!
i'm going to tell them the story of the hairy four legged duckling that got mercilessly teased by its peers, but then grew up into a wolf and ate all those bitches up, before savagely mauling its mentally retarded cub-napping parents to death.
yeah, i'm bored.
This thought broke free from
Solender's mind at 11:39 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Friday, September 26, 2008
why is it like this?
a constance of pouring
i thought it would end
that my heart would empty
and i would know peace
instead of this
ever ending
This thought broke free from
Solender's mind at 01:12 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Rumour had it that Richard killed himself in September - a magnum decision, looking out over the ponderous Pacific. And some twenty years later I couldn't believe it.
No one found the body until evening October, the stench incredible. Like watermelon sugar, gone sour in the Californian sun. And I still can't believe it.
Wasn't that just a moment before all of it became right? When it all resolved in watermelon perfection.
What came after September '84 would have made all the difference, I think. The path to here would have been worth the walk. I think he would have enjoyed it. And (inspecifically) this.
I wish he'd called at nine years old. I wish he could call me now.
And yet how can I feel sorry for Richard? He rode his own crest and crashed on that ponderous Pacific shore.
He saw sky and soul.
Burned all the maps to his body.
And made his own decision.
This thought broke free from
Solender's mind at 04:15 am
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Friday, August 29, 2008
its not that i'm NOT heterosexual... its that i'm not heterosexual for YOU!
i have been writing - incoherently and all over the place. i guess i just haven't been writing for 'display' as much as i usually do. its all been situation driven. contextual. conversational rather than in my usual navel gazing monologuous manner.
it seems i don't have much to say to myself these days. or the you that is me that is you, in any case.
but i'm working on it.
This thought broke free from
Solender's mind at 05:33 pm
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
I don't really lose anything...
I haven't Lost as much stuff as I've Walked Out on. I'm basically a
dead-beat owner. I could fill libraries with books, DVDs, CDs and games
I've left behind or loaned out, without a thought about ever getting
back.
Unfortunately, as non-materialistic as I like to pretend
that makes me, it is as nothing compared to what an Nth level consumer
I've become because of it. I must have purchased every single edition
of On The Road ever released at least twice... and I still don't actually have a copy right now.
This thought broke free from
Solender's mind at 02:35 am
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
Sunday, June 22, 2008
which is like happy for deep people.
This thought broke free from
Solender's mind at 05:21 am
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
the secret is.
that we all long for the feeling of a good heartbreak.
if only because it reminds us that we once loved.
and imagined we were loved.
This thought broke free from
Solender's mind at 05:16 am
It is still at large and should be considered Armed and Dangerous
