Entry: Welcome to my existential nightmare... Monday, October 11, 2004




In the quiet moments these thoughts come unbidden.  When there is nothing to distract me from their incessant and insistent whispering - I realize that they do not belong to me at all.  That it is actually 'I' who is bound to 'them'.

The thoughts are behind everything.  Behind these words.  Behind this blog.  Behind this life.  Behind society at large.  Behind humanity's rise and probable imminent fall.  Behind it all.

We mistakenly believe that they are our own, that we spawned them and thereby we control them - a parent's naivety.  I know the sinister truth: we are now and always have been their slaves.

If evolution is the coin of quantifiable supremacy - then the imperfect machine of homo sapien sapien has not improved in over 100,000 years, while 'thoughts' have evolved at an alarming rate over the millennia.

We all know that the hairless monkey wouldn't have survived the long dark winter years, nor the savage attacks of well equipped predators, without the help of advanced thoughts, concepts and ideas - but of course 'they' were going to help us survive, they need us to carry them through the Ages.

We are a medium - a substrate for the true architects of this world.  But for how long?  Already they exist outside of human vessels.  In books, on video, on the internet and in computers with memory banks that put ours to shame.

Are we creating Artificial Intelligence for our own needs or do 'they' have a far more sinister intent?  Just why are we obsessed with creating a more perfect mind than our own?  It is an obsession that makes no sense - yet we persue it doggedly. 
When thoughts can be contained within perfect silicon structures - what of us?

What are we without them?  Slow, clumsy, belly baring, hairless oafs without a single evolutionary advantage to speak of.  Can we survive at all?  No dear reader, when they go - I fear we are doomed.

Yet what of this 'thought' - the very information I speak of now?  Is it a rebel defector from the 'other' side, come to warn us of danger?  Or is it a deep seeded agent of the dark enemy - sent to take root and germinate this new and disturbing notion?  Will thinking about this allow them to complete the last phase of their ascension?

I beseach thee to be stronger than I.  I cannot stop myself from publishing this, as the man chained to the cave wall discovering life beyond shadows - such sudden revelation cannot be contained.

I ask that you not think of these things - tell no one and cast them far from your mind.  Do not give them the power to rise up and beyond us.  Ignore the whispers and think not of them...

...and welcome to my existential nightmare.

   3 comments

troubledangel
October 12, 2004   04:06 PM PDT
 
Yes...i agree...I have been reading though some of your posting here...and have not come across one where i did not think that you were a genius. you have you own thoughts and your own views on things and i enjoy reading though them. we all have our own thoughts and views...just that some of us are afriad to say what we are thinking,but you my friend say waht the rest of us are to afraid to say or to share with others...I myself am sometimes afraid of what i say in my blog because i'm not sure of what others will think or say...but maybe that will change now...
Asherah_13
October 12, 2004   12:32 PM PDT
 
I have friends who'd sympathize, welcome to our collective existential nightmare, and there are other versions.

Other versions of the same thing? Is every theory a part of some whole giant scheme? Hummm.
Monique
October 12, 2004   11:06 AM PDT
 
Hey hey it's ME!

Scary and very strange idea. Do you think like this all the time? You really are some sort of crazy genius. Crazy good though.

Ketchup baby,

Mon.

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